Never ending circle

I just realized something... and as far as I'm concerned... that's cool... I'd rather be just me anyway.. no matter how much you do for someone.. or care about them... love isn't forever.. or even for a long time.. it's a day to day thing.. and only when you are face to face... I deserve more... I'm decent.. not that horrible looking.. I should have been born way back when.. I guess I'm just old... fashioned... and old... I'm going to stop focusing on one thing.. and focus on a few... piss on it..

Friday Niiiaaaahhhhtt

It's been a while since I got off on a friday...teehee... I'm hateful.. and annoying.. evidently.. both of which I had no clue of.. well I knew I was annoying... Maybe I'm hateful too.. should I even try anymore? Maybe I'm just not used to the constructive critism.. but I had no idea.. yea I get a bee up my ass sometimes.. specially when I'm not in the best mood to start with.. but I've allways tried to make everyone I meet feel special... and a lot of people feel loved... a lot of the times that's what's wrong with a lot of people.. because they don't feel loved.. they feel alone.. maybe that's just me.. maybe I think I have the world figured out in my small teeny woman sized brain... and I'm just all wrong.. period.. maybe people could care less about feeling loved.. about having someone to yak at... maybe I'm living in this little fantasy world.. that all the world needs now is love sweet love.. not just for some.. but for everyone...I'm retarded... Maybe I'm immature.. I'm psycho.. I'm all the above... My sense of humor I guess isn't appreciated to the extent that it used to be.. I wonder.. if I've just gotten less funny over the years.. or those who used to enjoy my "wittiness" back in the day was just saying that in hopes that I would stop .... I thought I was liked.. *shrugs* maybe I should just stop............