KimberlyLaine

"I don't want the world to see me Cause I just don't think they'd understand Where everything is made to be broken I just want you to know who I am"

Saturday, October 09, 2004

Getting to Know you

Usually I just delete those forwards you get.. you know the ones that ask you to send to 5 people in 5 minutes or your pet will get the mange... I filled this one out...


1. IF YOU COULD BUILD A SECOND HOUSE ANYWHERE WHERE WOULD IT BE?
On the beach somewhere where there aren't any hurricanes ... nah.. seriously.. somewhere that has white sand and blue clear waters.. warm all year.. and where you could sit out on my deck with a cup of coffee or iced tea watching the dolphins swim by..

2. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ARTICLE OF CLOTHING?
Goodness I love clothes.. I'm such a clothes freak.. I don't know if I could pick one.. I'd have to say a pair of my capris..

3. WHAT IS THE LAST CD YOU BOUGHT?
ROFL!! Well I guess I have to be honest eh? Gwar.. Scumdogs of the Universe.. but the one before that was The Greatest Hits of Don Williams

4. WHAT TIME DO YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING?
I work 3rd shift.. so I'm usually going to bed in the mornings.. but my alarm is set for 12:45 PM and I usually get up around 1 or 1:15 PM

5. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE KITCHEN APPLIANCE?
Definately the Microwave.. makes making coffee such a breeze.. my least favorite? The dishwasher.. what the heck is the point in those? You gotta wash the dishes before you even put them in the dishwasher.. pointless lol...

6. IF YOU COULD PLAY AN INSTRUMENT, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Guitar.. I want to take lessons.. I would love to be able to play...

7. FAVORITE COLOR?
For the longest time my favorite color was blue.. Most people like blue.. Then when Harley started having a favorite color.. he showed me the beauty of Orange.. and now I love Orange.. teehee

8. WHICH DO YOU PREFER, SPORTS CAR OR SUV?
Sports car! Harley too.. All we need is a 2 seater.. Us against the world! lol.. He wants a car with no roof for christmas... *sigh* and the kid is only 6

9. DO YOU BELIEVE IN AFTERLIFE?
Of course! How could I not? =)

10. FAVORITE CHILDREN'S BOOK?
I'll love you forever.. or something to that effect.. it's been a while since I read it.. it makes me cry.. It's a story about a little boy and his mother.. and it goes through all the years of the boys life.. and the mother nurturing him even when he gets to be an adult.. There's a poem in it that says something like.. I'll love you forever, I'll need you for allways, as long as I'm living, my baby you'll be.. and then at the end the mother is dying and the son says the poem to her.. only he says as long as I'm living my mother you'll be... It's so touching.. but it's sad too.. I guess it's one of those you want to read.. but it's hard to..


11. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON?
Spring and Fall...I love Spring because things are being born.. and newness is beginning.. it's like a rebirth of sorts.. like the world has been reborn and a new start lies ahead.. I love Fall because I was born in Oct.. and I get presents.. hehe

12. IF YOU COULD HAVE ONE SUPER POWER WHAT WOULD IT BE?
I'm such a butthole.. I could say the power to heal.. I'd want the power to be invisible... hehehe...

13. IF YOU HAVE A TATTOO, WHAT IS IT?
I have a turtle on my ankle and a playboy bunny on my stomach.. I wanted one on the small of my back.. but then rethought it.. one day I won't want them there.. the 2 I have are easily hidden.. so...


14. CAN YOU JUGGLE?
Well I juggle a job, a home, a child, a boyfriend plus when I have time.. I sleep and eat as well.. LOL..

15. THE ONE PERSON FROM YOUR PAST YOU WISH YOU COULD GO BACK AND TALK TO?
Living... I think it would be my science teacher in the 3rd grade..

NonLiving.. I would have to say my cousin Bradley

16. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE DAY?
Day of the week.. would have to be Saturday.. I get to spend it with Harley.. and Day of the Year would be Thanksgiving...

17. WHAT'S IN THE TRUNK OF YOUR CAR?
3 boxes of books that I haven't brought in yet.. 1 bag of papers from my old desk I haven't brought in yet.. and there's probablly some more crap I haven't even remembered it's in there.. Oh and a spare... and some jumper cables.. and 2 Tshirts.. you know just in case I spill coffee on me on the way to work.. lol

18. WHICH DO YOU PREFER, SUSHI OR HAMBURGER?
Hamburger!! yum...

19. FROM THE PEOPLE YOU WILL EMAIL THIS TO, WHO'S MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND FIRST?
LOL I was first.. hehe... But I think the next person would be... hmmmm Elisabeth? LOL

21. WHO DID YOU RECEIVE THIS FROM? Kat

22. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FLOWER?
Tulips =)

23. WHAT IS YOUR
FAVORITE MEAL? I like seafood.. so I would have to say the toowamba pasta from Outback.. YUM>...

24. WHICH DO YOU PREFER..COKE OR PEPSI? Coke.. but I'm a BIG Dr Pepper Drinker =)

Love Yall
Kimberly

loveyabye

Wednesday, October 06, 2004

You are my Sunshine, My only Sunshine

Har used to sing that to me when he was a baby.. only it sounded more like "Shunshine" It would make me smile.. His beautiful little voice.. and that tender loving look in his eyes.. He's such a caring boy... I love him.. When he would take his naps.. during the spring or summer months.. I would sit outside on the porch in the sun.. and soak up all the beauty.. I love the sun.. just sitting there with a cool breeze blowing.. watching the bugs dance among the blades of grass.. Today I was drinking my coffee and smokin' out in the Shunshine.. How peaceful it was just sitting there on the warm concrete.. watching the neighbors go about thier days.. wondering what it was like in all the houses around.. wether there's a single mom working her tail off to take care of her babies.. or wether there's a couple of newlyweds getting into thier first fight... a couple with some dogs.. that will be thier only children.. or a married couple talking about divorce... I don't know if you think about things like that.. when you are driving by people's houses and see them walking out.. or in.. I do. .. I allways wonder what's going on in thier life.. wether they are happy.. or have they had thier share of heartache as well.. It's not that I'm nosey... (yeah I am.. but.. that's not why) but sometimes you sit and have pity parties for yourself.. thinking that life has spit on you and you wonder why everyone else gets what they want.. and you get crap... then you take an honest look at the other lives around you.. not necesarily the ones that you are connected to.. but the ones you don't know.. and you can't honestly say you are being "treated" so bad by life.. a man who's walking his elderly dog.. with hard work written all over his face.. I know he's seen hard times.. everyone has.. even if you are born with a silver spoon in your mouth.. you still have bad days.. we all do.. So next time you go to Mcdonald's.. and they get your order wrong.. remember.. the little girl behind the counter is trying to make it.. just like you.. and she probably doesn't make enough to take your crap... the next time you go to the Dr.. and you are complaining about that ingrown hair on your butt.. the nurse just might be worried about her mother with terminal cancer.. The next time you go to Walmart with your kids.. and they are absolutely driving you nuts.. and you wish you had left them at home... there might be a mother watching you.. wishing she could hold her baby .. instead she goes home sits in his room holds his things.. and wishes he would get on her nerves again... The next time you get into a fight with your significant other.. before you say.. I hate you.. remember.. those who don't have thier husbands.. because they give thier life up for others... those who had to give birth to thier babies.. and go to a funeral for the babies daddy 3 days later.. Those who have just as much strife as you.. just as hard.. just as painful.. stop complaining.. reach out your hand.. and say.. I understand.. It'll all be alright.. we'll live to see another day.. and then Sit back and enjoy the sun... watch the bugs dance among the blades of grass.. feel the cool breeze blow by.. and thank God for all the wonderful things he has given you..
loveyabye

Monday, October 04, 2004

To all the Boys I've loved before

Jake, I'm sorry that you felt the need to lie to me.. You were my first.. and I thought I was yours.. I was only 15 then.. so I had an excuse to be naive. Bill.. I'm sorry you only saw me as a person to fill in when your true love was gone.. Shoulda just been up front with me.. John.. I'm sorry I was such a horrible girlfriend.. I'm glad you are happy now... We had so much fun in the 5 years we were "together" you are still my family.. allways will be. Joel.. you were such a butthole.. (for lack of a better word) a 37 year old who took advantage of a 17 year old... I wish I had known about statutory rape.. I would have busted you so good... Sean.. We were so different.. you were grunge.. I was country.. I'm sorry.. to your brothers and your mom too.. I'm older now.. and can see.. I had some issues.. I hope you are doing well. Rusty.. I'm sorry I wasn't the kind you could take home to meet mom.. Just take home.. Jamie.. We didn't get a chance to actually see what we could have become.. I understand why.. and I apologize for putting you in that position... Drew.. Same goes for you.. Jamie.. Same as Rusty.. Jeffery.. you were so young.. I broke your heart I know.. I'm probablly paying for that now.. so.. sleep sound.. Stacie.. LOL.. you were my payback guy.. I'm sorry I left without saying goodbye.. It was probablly what you wanted anyway.. Joe.. Thanks for our "date" I'm glad you did the "deal" on the first date.. that way I didn't waist anymore time on you... Scott.. I know you are probably the second person I've had to truly love me.. (the first being John...) I'm sorry we couldn't make it.. we are better parents than we are husband and wife... I like being friends with you.. I hated fighting... Paul.. You showed me a lot of stuff about myself.. I wish you could have just been honest.. and stopped being so crazy.. you didn't have to impress me... All I've ever wanted was someone to be there and think of me when they weren't... and maybe you did that.. but you did a lot of other insane things too... I'm sorry I killed our baby.. To my soulmate.. the one I've yet had the chance to meet.. wherever you are out there in the world.. please don't make me suffer anymore.. I've allways said my match was probably on the beach drinking martini's surrounded by beautiful half naked women.. and I'm gonna kick your arse when I find you LOL.. seriously.. I look at my son sometimes and wonder if he'll be one of these people.. I hope he's a mix between his father n I.. I try to teach him how to treat women.. How precious love can be.. and how honesty and thoughtfulness can go a long way... I'm so tired of these screwed up relationships that I could puke.. Lesbianism has crossed my mind.. but it would be the same.. there's not one person out there that could be what I need them to be.. no where.. I'm such a stupid person for thinking there could be... I'm not normal.. maybe my lesson in this life is to be alone.. that's the thing I've been running from all this time.. I should just move back to Richmond.. into my own little apartment.. and live.. alone..

loveyabye

Sunday, October 03, 2004

Tests

Your Weakest Emotional Category is:
Motivation

Your Strongest Emotional Category is:
Self-Reliance

Congratulations!Your general IQ score is 118.
A person whose IQ score falls in the range of 111-128 is considered to be "above average intelligence".
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