I need a new lead on life

Just for the record.. I'm not complaining.. I'm not whining.. I'm just thinking outloud...

I'm not satisfied with things right now.. I need a change.. I feel stagnated.. taken for granted.. and looked down upon...

I don't feel I live up to the expectations others hold for me.. and most important what I hold for myself.

I've decided the only person I can depend on is myself...I've always been independent.. but just now realized.. why...

I don't feel I get the approval I need from those around me.. because I'll never live up to the perfection they think I should be. I do the best I can and somehow instead of getting comfort that I'm ok... I get critisism that I'm not good enough...

I know that the comments were not meant the way they were.. that they did not mean to make me feel incompetant... and maybe even don't matter...

but leaving me there feeling worthless... crying.. and needing support...

shows me that I must fend for myself....

I guess I'm not as important as beer and TV.

I'm sorry... You were the only person I had to talk to.. You left me alone.. not once but always... I need someone to listen...

You don't seem interested...

I just need something different...because the way things are now.. are not working...

*loveyabye*