Bitchy? Damn right I am!

Ok.. so I have an 8 year old son whom I don't get to see that often because when I am not at work.. he's at school.. (or I'm having to sleep.. because reguardless of everyone's opinion sleep is a necessity.. not a recreation) I am a full time student.. (also a requirement.. if I want to afford the things my son needs.. college, food, shelter) I work almost 50 hours a week babysitting adults who should not need adult supervision... AND I have a boyfriend whom I get to see 1 day a week, at the grocery store.. or when I pass by him with a load of laundry.

Yes I'm bitchy..

I have feelings, needs, and I get stressed, and I don't feel good all the time... Is it not ok for me to be in a bad mood every now and then??

I don't get to go out a lot.. 1. I have no friends.. 2. I have an 8 year old son who I don't want to take time away from... 3. When do I have time just to be an adult? I'm being an adult every day of my life... the 3 days a week I have off I'm cramming them so full of stuff I can't get done during the week I'm rushing around on Sunday to get clean clothes to wear....

The people I enjoy getting thier opinions from and learning from... I'm obviously not allowed to converse with...

I have things I need to talk about.. things I would like some input on... sometimes I feel everyone takes what they need and then leaves me to fend on my own...

I feel like screaming.... a lot....

But yet.. when I walk through life I'm expected to do so with a smile.... always in a pleasent mood.. never have any concerns or gripes..

You know as much as I would like to agree with you.. I'm not a goddess.. I'm not perfect.. I have to shake my ketchup just like everyone else.. So when I'm not smiling.. when I look as if I'm having a bad day... if I seem a little stressed and might need someone to talk to.. don't ask me why I look down... don't ask me If I need someone to chat with for a sec... don't be concerned that I might have feelings... just remember one thing....


I'm a bitch...

get over it..